Retirement is "supposed" to be the time to do things you have always wanted to do. Travel for instance. I want to do road trips, visit friends, and family, see beautiful places, cruise. Of course, money is an issue, but mostly there's the concern about whether I should be away from home. The guys do a lot to help with Miriam, but I feel responsible.
Although Miriam does her own personal care - dresses, bathes, and feeds herself - we do have to serve her a lot. Preparing and bringing food. And you cannot really plan and prepare ahead, because how she feels and what she can eat changes. Laundry. If there is more than a little walking involved, we need to at least walk with her, but more likely use the wheelchair. It doesn't sound like a lot, and the guys already do a great deal, maybe more than I do. And I know I have left for a week or more in the past, even taken Andrew so Joseph was taking care of things alone, but it seems less of a good idea and seems like a lot to ask of them.
I don't know if - I will ever be free. Nor can I wish to be, right?
Or if I am, by then will I be too old and decrepit to do anything?
I hesitate to take a short road trip. I want to go visit my tree where my ashes will be placed in Better Place Forest near Point Arena, but I don't know about being gone 2-3 days. And yet I have booked a 7 night Disney Alaska Cruise for September 2021. Plus travel time and maybe a tourist day or two in Vancouver, B.C.
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